2017 has been a year of change like no other. It started on a high note when I started my new job on January 3rd, and took an unexpected nose dive with the passing of my Mom, on January 12th.
Since then, every day has been an effort to stay in the moment and keep moving forward. One day at a time. One task at a time. One goal at a time. It’s been a bit overwhelming at times, but I’ve found that each day brings new opportunities for healing and happiness. Each day I can remember something about my Mom: a memory, a lesson, a mannerism, or habit. Most times, I’m crying while I smile… because, although it hurts to think of the future without her, I am always smiling when I remember her. I treasure each moment I get to spend with my Mom in my memories and I feel entirely blessed to have had the chance to know so many facets of her.
Since her passing, I have already faced her birthday, January 31st, and I knew Mother’s Day was also going to be difficult, but it’s amazing how I had never before noticed all the Mother’s Day advertisements on the radio, TV, internet, in cafes, and restaurants… it was such a slap in the face and that was just the weeks leading up to the weekend.
Mercifully, I found refuge at the beach. My cousin and her family were taking a vacation to the Outer Banks, North Carolina, and it was the perfect place for me to spend my first Mother’s Day without my Mom. Surrounded with love and laughter, and a sweet little boy with the ability to take away all my sadness with one little smile. ♥